Love is not self-seeking(day 9)

We walked into the room and all eyes were on us, at least I thought it was us. As friends approached I eagerly said “Hi” and desperately tried to start a conversation.

But it all seemed to fall to the floor because they only talked to HER - they only wanted and saw HER.

I watched the laughter and future plans being made. The ache in my heart to fit in deepened and although I was her friend it never seemed to fill the deeper ache.

I wanted to matter. I wanted to stand alone and matter.

Fast forward to today: How does God’s crazy love for me define my daily life?

My love for God literally moves me. Without it I would gladly sit in my nothingness of feeling like I'm just a wife, just a mom, just a woman without God.

But with God … I am forgiven! I am somebody's wife and I am four children's mom and I am daughter to the King. How can I not boast of my God and His love when just the basics give me all those privileges? So being bold in my love for God and people flows out of me, not perfectly, but daily. I see people and just feel this tug in my heart that opens my mouth and starts conversations.

People matter and they want to know that they matter.

This world is relentless and unforgiving at times. It swallows people up with its barrage of quick fire ads and “must haves” of the latest and greatest devices to access the whole world and seek self worth.

Twitter equates life to mere sound bites of thoughts, feelings and words. Facebook has updates for the more “lengthy” needs and let’s not forget Instagram, Vine and Snap Chat. With all of these instant gratification and selfie-systems out there, how do we begin to love others and show them they REALLY matter?

Love is not self-seeking and Love is patient. (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)

I have not come up with this equation and I have by no means perfected it…but I daily try and share it. Putting my selfishness aside and putting others first has proved itself more fulfilling then some would think.

I have learned that listening is a far greater gift then that of the gift of gab.

I have seen patience melt away difficulties and produce tenderness.

I have heard gratitude in the sweetest form when all I did was sit quietly with someone for hours.

It is not for me to understand or even perfect, but it is my heart thanks to my God's crazy love that drives me to let you know you matter and you are worth everything.

Matthew 22:37-39 - Jesus replied " Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind." This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: "Love your neighbor as yourself"